Marriage was a fantasy that was sold to me when I was too young to understand it’s gravity. I was forbidden to enter the kitchen or do any household chores by my granny who used to keep saying she will find a woman for me who will take care of my house and my needs. I used to see my granny and my mother toiling in the house every day and to be honest, I never gave much thought to it, but I thought that was the way it was. What enticed me towards marriage was the occasion itself, people coming together and having fun, women covered in ornaments, sumptuous food and most importantly, being at the centre of attraction. My understanding of a companion changed when I started living with friends and later alone, but a full comprehension of marriage took some time.
They say marriages are made in heaven, but on earth, we are as different as chalk and cheese and I am not able to figure out the contradiction. We are brought up in different environments, we grow up in very different circumstances and consequently we develop very unique characters and personalities. When two such individuals become friends, it is normal, but when they get married, it is special. Why? I will go into that in a bit. People say marriage takes plenty of sacrifices and adjustments. Why is this to be spoken about specifically when we have been doing it for our friends for a long time? Or is it because we understand our friends? So why is it that we are more inclined to adjust with rather than understand this one person? What amazes me is how the rate of separation is surpassing the rate of union in the present times. When the love bug strikes, the two individuals are completely focused on those aspects in each other that they are interested in. Mannerisms are at their best, words are chosen with care and attire is at it’s pleasing best. But in a while, the factors that got the two people interested in each other becomes taken for granted and the attention turns to aspects that never matched between the two people, quickly diluting the bonds holding them together. All this is fine when it happens before marriage, but it beats my understanding when people go through all this after marriage. Then what makes people feel assured about marriage in the first place? Why become certain and uncertain about one person and one relationship with the passage of time? Why take all the trouble of getting married and showing pompously to the world that this is my companion sent from heaven? Question is, why marriage at all?
There was a time when we had to procreate to build our population and beat out competition from the rest of the animals in the ecosystem. On the way, we learned about having families with single partners from other animals. That turned into lineage, royal blood, dynasties and what not. Marriages became alliances to bring families together, either to end feuds or to unite against common enemies. All of this has been going on for ages and suddenly, all of these reasons vanished. Our population is exploding, there is no royal blood to protect and carry over and there is no more need to form alliances through marriages. The core foundations of marriage has been shaken and uprooted. This is why marriage has turned from the institution of procreation to the institution of confusion. The need for procreation is what made marriage special, but it is no longer the case. Now, people marry because society says they are old enough to get married. This is what happens when some part of us stays rooted in the past and the rest moves on with time. Our society and what it stands for starts decaying and losing value.
I do not know how this utterly ridiculous concept got created that when differences prop up between two people after marriage, a child or children can help sort things out. Any relationship is an investment of time, effort and emotions and marriage requires greater and consistent investment of these three factors over a period of time to burn the differences and build bridges between the two people. A child, which is no longer the product of the need of procreation, has to be the product of equal investments of the three factors from both people. But when these people are focused on each other’s differences, how can a child ever make people change their attitude and perceptions? It may become dormant for a while, but the fire remains in the underbelly and will come out with greater intensity down the road. Only outcome out of this is the troublesome childhood these children get and creation of confused and mostly wrong perceptions about relationships in their hapless minds. People seem relieved once they are separated from their partners and are divorced. Does the status of single and ready to mingle help us unload the baggage of our past experience or will that baggage weigh on our minds as we move on into a new relationship? So what happened to all the investment of time, effort and emotions? When children are born amidst differences, it means people have invested these three factors atleast for some time. So why can’t people work on this and make it span greater in their lives? When one person in a marriage cheats on the other with another person, it means only one thing. If someone cannot find contentment with one person, then it will never be truly found with any number of people. When one marriage goes sour, can it be fixed with another marriage? I honestly do not know, but I do know that I will neither have the state of mind or the stuff in my belly to take my chances again. Call me old school, I won’t mind.
I happened to see a movie in which the protagonist, a well educated guy is trying to become an entrepreneur and set up his own factory in a place where trade unions hold sway. This guy, with no job in hand at the moment, goes to see a girl for an arranged marriage. He tells her boldly that he means to leave his mark in this world in his own way, so if she chooses to marry him, she can either die as a millionaire’s wife if he succeeds in his plans or die as the wife of a madman if he fails. It is a risk she had the choice to take or reject which she finally takes on. Whenever a conversation of marriage comes up, people start talking about jobs, bank balances, family heritage and a 100 other things, none of which are perpetual or hold any value down the road. When the women of today claim that they are too busy in their careers to start families, they do not realize that their jobs are potential time bombs which can go off any time and make them unemployed any day. If marriage is perceived as a risk, then everything in life comes with risk. Taking it on and mitigating the risks together builds lasting relationships. My mantra for marriage is to never invest trust in it, invest faith and keep hoping that things would become better eventually, so in case it doesn’t happen, only my faith will be dented and not my trust in people.